Land of Fire
Friday, Jul 29, 2005
| permanent linkDay: 16
Position: 55 south, 65 west
Airtemp: 36 F
Weather: Cold, rainy and sleet
Seas: Calm
We’ve had an amazingly fast 24 hours. Luke took watch just past 2 a.m. and brought us to the mouth of the Le Maire Straits two hours before a very bleak and ominous gray dawn with strong winds, gusting to 40 knots but with relatively calm seas as Tierra Del Fuego was keeping the fetch of the seas to a minimum, though we could not yet make out the Land of Fire. I took the watch and simply tacked back and forth for a few hours, waiting for high tide, which would provide a much smoother passage through the Straits. Sleet and rain, freezing wind and these mean, dark walls of cumulonimbus clouds, combined with a barometer that has been on a nosedive since last night would usually have me feeling little but dread. But I don’t. In fact today, the gloomiest yet on the passage has me in very high spirits indeed, but in high spirits that also leave me a bit disappointed. We’ve sailed over 1900 miles in the last 16 days, 1900 miles to cover what a bird could in 1100. That’s a lot of extra miles. We’ve had wind at every strength, from every point on the compass rose, and it has been by all definitions a hell of a slog. And though our goal, to sail around Cape Horn has not yet been realized a successful run through the Le Maire Straits today, which we completed a few hours ago has the most grueling and dangerous part of our journey in our wake. We can now rest - not easy, but rest assured that our goal, barring a breakdown we cannot repair will be realized.
Usually this landmark would be cause for Luke and I to have at least a bit of a celebration, knowing full well we still have over a hundred miles to Ushuaia and we don’t want to lose focus yet, but while I am jubilant, I am hardly ready to crack the champagne. This is hard to define. It has been well documented that solo circumnavigators often experience their worst hardship on finally reaching port after months at sea. While humbled and usually in awe of the sea and its power they grow very attached and almost dependent on its moods. Moods that often reflect their own. Suddenly their quest, which began for reasons only they can understand is over and the prospect of figuring out what to do now leaves them mirthless and even more alone than they were at sea. Many experience nervous breakdowns. Some commit suicide. Many find a way to sail again, running farther from whatever it is they can’t attain on land. I’ve read countless books about adventurers - land and sea expeditions and the people who take them on. Many end in triumph, some end in tragedy. There were many days in our journey south that I asked myself why in the hell would I do this? What drives me to take these kinds of things on? Living in such cold, damp conditions. Forever trying to eat and cook at a 30 degree angle. Things slamming and banging incessantly. Noises that just will not go away. Going to the bathroom is probably the most dangerous thing we do. But now we are here and I realize that shit, that wasn’t that hard. “That was supposed to be hard dammit!” But it wasn’t. We battled some awesome seas and there were times when I thought we’ll never, ever, ever get there. But here we are. Luke kept a positive face throughout and we had many great laughs. In fact we couldn’t have asked for better rapport, hard to find in small quarters in such conditions. And now we’re looking at each other going man, that was supposed to be brutal. I think deep down we wanted it to be brutal because that’s what you expect, and that is the glory you hope to somehow pocket and take with you long after the expedition’s end.
For five minutes this morning the gray blanket of fog and rain that looked well and truly to live permanently in these parts suddenly lifted, giving me a most breathtaking view of soaring snow covered peaks that were hardly five miles away. My heart sang and I started to dance, the Rolling Stones and I playing air guitar at the bottom of the world. In another moment it was gone, the mountains swallowed whole by the grayness as quickly as they appeared. So we don’t have a harrowing account of 70 knot winds and behemoth seas. We don’t have a knockdown, man overboard, fire or any other truly harrowing story to tell. But however the remainder of this adventure plays out and whatever inevitable joys and disappointments arise, I got what I came for in those brief minutes. My own story, written just for me.
Gavin McClurg, bottom of the world.